“But longing is momentum in disguise: It’s active, not passive; touched with the creative, the tender, and the divine. We long for something, or someone. We reach for it, move toward it. The word longing derives from the Old English langian, meaning “to grow long,” and the German langen—to reach, to extend. The word yearning is linguistically associated with hunger and thirst, but also desire. In Hebrew, it comes from the same root as the word for passion.”
― Susan Cain, Bittersweet: How Sorrow and Longing Make Us Whole
But to yearn for someone or something is לְהִשְׁתּוֹקֵק (leh-heesh-toh-KEK). It comes from the same root as the word for passion – תְּשׁוּקָה (teh-shoo-KAH).
https://ulpan.com/how-to-say-longing-and-yearning-in-hebrew/
Number Our Days So that We Might Gain a Heart of Flesh
(א) תְּפִלָּה֮ לְמֹשֶׁ֢ה אִֽישׁ־הָאֱלֹ֫הִ֥ים אֲֽדֹנָ֗י מָע֣וֹן אַ֭תָּה הָיִ֥יתָ לָּ֗נוּ בְּדֹ֣ר וָדֹֽר׃ (ב) בְּטֶ֤רֶם ׀ הָ֘רִ֤ים יֻלָּ֗דוּ וַתְּח֣וֹלֵֽל אֶ֣רֶץ וְתֵבֵ֑ל וּֽמֵעוֹלָ֥ם עַד־ע֝וֹלָ֗ם אַתָּ֥ה אֵֽל׃ (ג) תָּשֵׁ֣ב אֱ֭נוֹשׁ עַד־דַּכָּ֑א וַ֝תֹּ֗אמֶר שׁ֣וּבוּ בְנֵֽי־אָדָֽם׃ (ד) כִּ֤י אֶ֪לֶף שָׁנִ֡ים בְּֽעֵינֶ֗יךָ כְּי֣וֹם אֶ֭תְמוֹל כִּ֣י יַעֲבֹ֑ר וְאַשְׁמוּרָ֥ה בַלָּֽיְלָה׃ (ה) זְ֭רַמְתָּם שֵׁנָ֣ה יִהְי֑וּ בַּ֝בֹּ֗קֶר כֶּחָצִ֥יר יַחֲלֹֽף׃ (ו) בַּ֭בֹּקֶר יָצִ֣יץ וְחָלָ֑ף לָ֝עֶ֗רֶב יְמוֹלֵ֥ל וְיָבֵֽשׁ׃ (ז) כִּי־כָלִ֥ינוּ בְאַפֶּ֑ךָ וּֽבַחֲמָתְךָ֥ נִבְהָֽלְנוּ׃ (ח) שַׁתָּ֣ עֲוֺנֹתֵ֣ינוּ לְנֶגְדֶּ֑ךָ עֲ֝לֻמֵ֗נוּ לִמְא֥וֹר פָּנֶֽיךָ׃ (ט) כִּ֣י כׇל־יָ֭מֵינוּ פָּנ֣וּ בְעֶבְרָתֶ֑ךָ כִּלִּ֖ינוּ שָׁנֵ֣ינוּ כְמוֹ־הֶֽגֶה׃ (י) יְמֵֽי־שְׁנוֹתֵ֨ינוּ בָהֶ֥ם שִׁבְעִ֪ים שָׁנָ֡ה וְאִ֤ם בִּגְבוּרֹ֨ת ׀ שְׁמ֘וֹנִ֤ים שָׁנָ֗ה וְ֭רׇהְבָּם עָמָ֣ל וָאָ֑וֶן כִּי־גָ֥ז חִ֝֗ישׁ וַנָּעֻֽפָה׃ (יא) מִֽי־י֭וֹדֵעַ עֹ֣ז אַפֶּ֑ךָ וּ֝כְיִרְאָתְךָ֗ עֶבְרָתֶֽךָ׃ (יב) לִמְנ֣וֹת יָ֭מֵינוּ כֵּ֣ן הוֹדַ֑ע וְ֝נָבִ֗א לְבַ֣ב חׇכְמָֽה׃ (יג) שׁוּבָ֣ה יְ֭הֹוָה עַד־מָתָ֑י וְ֝הִנָּחֵ֗ם עַל־עֲבָדֶֽיךָ׃ (יד) שַׂבְּעֵ֣נוּ בַבֹּ֣קֶר חַסְדֶּ֑ךָ וּֽנְרַנְּנָ֥ה וְ֝נִשְׂמְחָ֗ה בְּכׇל־יָמֵֽינוּ׃ (טו) שַׂ֭מְּחֵנוּ כִּימ֣וֹת עִנִּיתָ֑נוּ שְׁ֝נ֗וֹת רָאִ֥ינוּ רָעָֽה׃ (טז) יֵרָאֶ֣ה אֶל־עֲבָדֶ֣יךָ פׇעֳלֶ֑ךָ וַ֝הֲדָרְךָ֗ עַל־בְּנֵיהֶֽם׃ (יז) וִיהִ֤י ׀ נֹ֤עַם אֲדֹנָ֥י אֱלֹהֵ֗ינוּ עָ֫לֵ֥ינוּ וּמַעֲשֵׂ֣ה יָ֭דֵינוּ כּוֹנְנָ֥ה עָלֵ֑ינוּ וּֽמַעֲשֵׂ֥ה יָ֝דֵ֗ינוּ כּוֹנְנֵֽהוּ׃ {פ}
(1) A prayer of Moses, the man of God. O Lord, You have been our refuge in every generation. (2) Before the mountains came into being, before You brought forth the earth and the world, from eternity to eternity You are God. (3) You return man to dust; You decreed, “Return you mortals!” (4) For in Your sight a thousand years are like yesterday that has passed, like a watch of the night. (5) You engulf men in sleep; at daybreak they are like grass that renews itself; (6) at daybreak it flourishes anew; by dusk it withers and dries up. (7) So we are consumed by Your anger, terror-struck by Your fury. (8) You have set our iniquities before You, our hidden sins in the light of Your face. (9) All our days pass away in Your wrath; we spend our years like a sigh. (10) The span of our life is seventy years, or, given the strength, eighty years; but the best of them-b are trouble and sorrow. They pass by speedily, and we are in darkness.-Who can know Your furious anger? Your wrath matches the fear of You. (12) Teach us to count our days rightly, that we may obtain a wise heart. (13) Turn, O LORD! How long? Show mercy to Your servants. (14) Satisfy us at daybreak with Your steadfast love that we may sing for joy all our days. (15) Give us joy for as long as You have afflicted us, for the years we have suffered misfortune. (16) Let Your deeds be seen by Your servants, Your glory by their children. (17) May the favor of the Lord, our God, be upon us; let the work of our hands prosper, O prosper the work of our hands!
A thousand years to you are like a yesterday
Like a lonely hour in the middle of the night
You rush them away like a flood
Like a long sleep
Like grass
That rises up fresh in the morning
And in the evening withers
I am consumed by you
Terrified by time
And my despair is all too clear
In the light of your face
All my days pass
In the your midst
All my years reverberate
Like a solemnly spoken word
The years of our life number seventy
If we are uncommonly strong maybe eighty
Yet they only bring trouble and sorrow
For we can’t forget how soon they pass
How swiftly they fly by
Who knows your power?
I can only fear it in the darkness of every night
Help me understand how to count my days
How to embrace my life
That I may nourish a heart of wisdom
Translation of an excerpt of Psalm 90, by Norman Fischer, Soto Zen priest, poet, and writer, and a co-founder of a Jewish meditation center.
Ushering in a Continuum
On the one hand, Judaism requires us to re-experience the past. On the other hand, Judaism requires us to pre-experience the future, the as yet non-real that will become real at some point in time...To exist as a Jew means to be at the juncture of past and future, at the non-real any longer and the non-real as yet... Our mission is to engage in retrospection and anticipation, in recollection and expectation.
When one counts, one ushers in a continuum...At any position in which you find yourself counting, you have to be aware of two things: of the preceding position and of the following position. For instance, we counted last night "lamed- gimmel ba'omer, thirty-three days in the omer. However, we could not have arrived at this position from nowhere, ex nihilo. When we say lamed-gimmel, thirty-three, we ipso facto state that this position was preceded by thirty-two previous positions...At the same time, however, we also know that "thrity-three" is not the last station. From here we'll move to addition positions... IN other words, any act of counting embraces retrospection as well as anticipation...And that's why sefirah, counting, is so prominent in the Halacha...Transcription of Rav Soloveitchik's speech delivered to the Chevrah Shas in Boston on May 20, 1973 from the book Rabbi Joseph B. Soloveitchik on Pesach, Sefirat ha-Omer and Shavu'ot
Bread That Doesn't Have Time to Rise
(לז) וַיִּסְע֧וּ בְנֵֽי־יִשְׂרָאֵ֛ל מֵרַעְמְסֵ֖ס סֻכֹּ֑תָה כְּשֵׁשׁ־מֵא֨וֹת אֶ֧לֶף רַגְלִ֛י הַגְּבָרִ֖ים לְבַ֥ד מִטָּֽף׃ (לח) וְגַם־עֵ֥רֶב רַ֖ב עָלָ֣ה אִתָּ֑ם וְצֹ֣אן וּבָקָ֔ר מִקְנֶ֖ה כָּבֵ֥ד מְאֹֽד׃ (לט) וַיֹּאפ֨וּ אֶת־הַבָּצֵ֜ק אֲשֶׁ֨ר הוֹצִ֧יאוּ מִמִּצְרַ֛יִם עֻגֹ֥ת מַצּ֖וֹת כִּ֣י לֹ֣א חָמֵ֑ץ כִּֽי־גֹרְשׁ֣וּ מִמִּצְרַ֗יִם וְלֹ֤א יָֽכְלוּ֙ לְהִתְמַהְמֵ֔הַּ וְגַם־צֵדָ֖ה לֹא־עָשׂ֥וּ לָהֶֽם׃ (מ) וּמוֹשַׁב֙ בְּנֵ֣י יִשְׂרָאֵ֔ל אֲשֶׁ֥ר יָשְׁב֖וּ בְּמִצְרָ֑יִם שְׁלֹשִׁ֣ים שָׁנָ֔ה וְאַרְבַּ֥ע מֵא֖וֹת שָׁנָֽה׃ (מא) וַיְהִ֗י מִקֵּץ֙ שְׁלֹשִׁ֣ים שָׁנָ֔ה וְאַרְבַּ֥ע מֵא֖וֹת שָׁנָ֑ה וַיְהִ֗י בְּעֶ֙צֶם֙ הַיּ֣וֹם הַזֶּ֔ה יָ֥צְא֛וּ כׇּל־צִבְא֥וֹת יְהֹוָ֖ה מֵאֶ֥רֶץ מִצְרָֽיִם׃ (מב) לֵ֣יל שִׁמֻּרִ֥ים הוּא֙ לַֽיהֹוָ֔ה לְהוֹצִיאָ֖ם מֵאֶ֣רֶץ מִצְרָ֑יִם הֽוּא־הַלַּ֤יְלָה הַזֶּה֙ לַֽיהֹוָ֔ה שִׁמֻּרִ֛ים לְכׇל־בְּנֵ֥י יִשְׂרָאֵ֖ל לְדֹרֹתָֽם׃ {פ}
(37) The Israelites journeyed from Rameses to Succoth, about six hundred thousand fighting men on foot, aside from noncombatants. (38) Moreover, a mixed multitude went up with them, and very much livestock, both flocks and herds. (39) And they baked unleavened cakes of the dough that they had taken out of Egypt, for it was not leavened, since they had been driven out of Egypt and could not delay; nor had they prepared any provisions for themselves. (40) The length of time that the Israelites lived in Egypt was four hundred and thirty years; (41) at the end of the four hundred and thirtieth year, to the very day, all the ranks of יהוה departed from the land of Egypt. (42) That was for יהוה a night of vigil to bring them out of the land of Egypt; that same night is יהוה’s, one of vigil for all the children of Israel throughout the ages.
The Symbolism of Manna
(א) וַיִּסְעוּ֙ מֵֽאֵילִ֔ם וַיָּבֹ֜אוּ כׇּל־עֲדַ֤ת בְּנֵֽי־יִשְׂרָאֵל֙ אֶל־מִדְבַּר־סִ֔ין אֲשֶׁ֥ר בֵּין־אֵילִ֖ם וּבֵ֣ין סִינָ֑י בַּחֲמִשָּׁ֨ה עָשָׂ֥ר יוֹם֙ לַחֹ֣דֶשׁ הַשֵּׁנִ֔י לְצֵאתָ֖ם מֵאֶ֥רֶץ מִצְרָֽיִם׃ (ב) (וילינו) [וַיִּלּ֜וֹנוּ] כׇּל־עֲדַ֧ת בְּנֵי־יִשְׂרָאֵ֛ל עַל־מֹשֶׁ֥ה וְעַֽל־אַהֲרֹ֖ן בַּמִּדְבָּֽר׃ (ג) וַיֹּאמְר֨וּ אֲלֵהֶ֜ם בְּנֵ֣י יִשְׂרָאֵ֗ל מִֽי־יִתֵּ֨ן מוּתֵ֤נוּ בְיַד־יְהֹוָה֙ בְּאֶ֣רֶץ מִצְרַ֔יִם בְּשִׁבְתֵּ֙נוּ֙ עַל־סִ֣יר הַבָּשָׂ֔ר בְּאׇכְלֵ֥נוּ לֶ֖חֶם לָשֹׂ֑בַע כִּֽי־הוֹצֵאתֶ֤ם אֹתָ֙נוּ֙ אֶל־הַמִּדְבָּ֣ר הַזֶּ֔ה לְהָמִ֛ית אֶת־כׇּל־הַקָּהָ֥ל הַזֶּ֖ה בָּרָעָֽב׃ {ס} (ד) וַיֹּ֤אמֶר יְהֹוָה֙ אֶל־מֹשֶׁ֔ה הִנְנִ֨י מַמְטִ֥יר לָכֶ֛ם לֶ֖חֶם מִן־הַשָּׁמָ֑יִם וְיָצָ֨א הָעָ֤ם וְלָֽקְטוּ֙ דְּבַר־י֣וֹם בְּיוֹמ֔וֹ לְמַ֧עַן אֲנַסֶּ֛נּוּ הֲיֵלֵ֥ךְ בְּתוֹרָתִ֖י אִם־לֹֽא׃
(1) Setting out from Elim, the whole Israelite community came to the wilderness of Sin, which is between Elim and Sinai, on the fifteenth day of the second month after their departure from the land of Egypt. (2) In the wilderness, the whole Israelite community grumbled against Moses and Aaron. (3) The Israelites said to them, “If only we had died by the hand of יהוה in the land of Egypt, when we sat by the fleshpots, when we ate our fill of bread! For you have brought us out into this wilderness to starve this whole congregation to death.” (4) And יהוה said to Moses, “I will rain down bread for you from the sky, and the people shall go out and gather each day that day’s portion—that I may thus test them, to see whether they will follow My instructions or not.
Beyond Manna
(יא) וַיֹּ֨אכְל֜וּ מֵעֲב֥וּר הָאָ֛רֶץ מִמׇּחֳרַ֥ת הַפֶּ֖סַח מַצּ֣וֹת וְקָל֑וּי בְּעֶ֖צֶם הַיּ֥וֹם הַזֶּֽה׃ (יב) וַיִּשְׁבֹּ֨ת הַמָּ֜ן מִֽמׇּחֳרָ֗ת בְּאׇכְלָם֙ מֵעֲב֣וּר הָאָ֔רֶץ וְלֹא־הָ֥יָה ע֛וֹד לִבְנֵ֥י יִשְׂרָאֵ֖ל מָ֑ן וַיֹּאכְל֗וּ מִתְּבוּאַת֙ אֶ֣רֶץ כְּנַ֔עַן בַּשָּׁנָ֖ה הַהִֽיא׃ {ס}
(11) On the day after the passover offering, on that very day, they ate of the produce of the country, unleavened bread and parched grain. (12) On that same day, when they ate of the produce of the land, the manna ceased. The Israelites got no more manna; that year they ate of the yield of the land of Canaan.
Narrative Becomes Ritual:The Instruction to Count the Omer
(טו) וּסְפַרְתֶּ֤ם לָכֶם֙ מִמָּחֳרַ֣ת הַשַּׁבָּ֔ת מִיּוֹם֙ הֲבִ֣יאֲכֶ֔ם אֶת־עֹ֖מֶר הַתְּנוּפָ֑ה שֶׁ֥בַע שַׁבָּת֖וֹת תְּמִימֹ֥ת תִּהְיֶֽינָה׃ (טז) עַ֣ד מִֽמָּחֳרַ֤ת הַשַּׁבָּת֙ הַשְּׁבִיעִ֔ת תִּסְפְּר֖וּ חֲמִשִּׁ֣ים י֑וֹם וְהִקְרַבְתֶּ֛ם מִנְחָ֥ה חֲדָשָׁ֖ה לַה' (יז) מִמּוֹשְׁבֹ֨תֵיכֶ֜ם תָּבִ֣יאּוּ ׀ לֶ֣חֶם תְּנוּפָ֗ה שְׁ֚תַּיִם שְׁנֵ֣י עֶשְׂרֹנִ֔ים סֹ֣לֶת תִּהְיֶ֔ינָה חָמֵ֖ץ תֵּאָפֶ֑ינָה בִּכּוּרִ֖ים לַֽה' (יח) וְהִקְרַבְתֶּ֣ם עַל־הַלֶּ֗חֶם שִׁבְעַ֨ת כְּבָשִׂ֤ים תְּמִימִם֙ בְּנֵ֣י שָׁנָ֔ה וּפַ֧ר בֶּן־בָּקָ֛ר אֶחָ֖ד וְאֵילִ֣ם שְׁנָ֑יִם יִהְי֤וּ עֹלָה֙ לַֽה' וּמִנְחָתָם֙ וְנִסְכֵּיהֶ֔ם אִשֵּׁ֥ה רֵֽיחַ־נִיחֹ֖חַ לַה'
(15) And ye shall count unto you from the morrow after the day of rest, from the day that ye brought the sheaf of the waving (barley harvest); seven weeks shall there be complete; (16) even unto the morrow after the seventh week shall ye number fifty days; and ye shall present a new meal-offering unto the LORD. (17) Ye shall bring out of your dwellings two wave-loaves of two tenth parts of an ephah; they shall be of fine flour (wheat harvest), they shall be baked with leaven, for first-fruits unto the LORD. (18) And ye shall present with the bread seven lambs without blemish of the first year, and one young bullock, and two rams; they shall be a burnt-offering unto the LORD, with their meal-offering, and their drink-offerings, even an offering made by fire, of a sweet savour unto the LORD.
Yearning for Revelation
(ד) וּמִפְּנֵי כֵן, כִּי הִיא כָּל עִקָּרָן שֶׁל יִשְׂרָאֵל וּבַעֲבוּרָהּ נִגְאֲלוּ וְעָלוּ לְכָל הַגְּדֻלָּה שֶׁעָלוּ אֵלֶיהָ, נִצְטַוִּינוּ לִמְנוֹת מִמָּחֳרַת יוֹם טוֹב שֶׁל פֶּסַח עַד יוֹם נְתִינַת הַתּוֹרָה לְהַרְאוֹת בְּנַפְשֵׁנוּ הַחֵפֶץ הַגָּדוֹל אֶל הַיּוֹם הַנִּכְבָּד הַנִּכְסָף לְלִבֵּנוּ כְּעֶבֶד יִשְׁאַף צֵל, וְיִמְנֶה תָּמִיד מָתַי יָבוֹא הָעֵת הַנִּכְסָף אֵלָיו שֶׁיֵּצֵא לְחֵרוּת, כִּי הַמִּנְיָן מַרְאֶה לְאָדָם כִּי כָל יִשְׁעוֹ וְכָל חֶפְצוֹ לְהַגִּיעַ אֶל הַזְּמַן הַהוּא. וְזֶהוּ שֶׁאָנוּ מוֹנִין לָעֹמֶר, כְּלוֹמַר, כָּךְ וְכָךְ יָמִים עָבְרוּ מִן הַמִּנְיָן וְאֵין אָנוּ מוֹנִין כָּךְ וְכָךְ יָמִים יֵשׁ לָנוּ לַזְּמַן, כִּי כָּל זֶה מַרְאֶה לָנוּ הָרָצוֹן הֶחָזָק לְהַגִּיעַ אֶל הַזְּמַן, וְעַל כֵּן לֹא נִרְצֶה לְהַזְכִּיר בִּתְחִלַּת חֶשְׁבּוֹנֵנוּ רִבּוּי הַיָּמִים שֶׁיֵּשׁ לָנוּ לְהַגִּיעַ לְקָרְבַּן שְׁתֵּי הַלֶּחֶם שֶׁל עֲצֶרֶת.
(4) And because of this — that it is [the] essence of Israel, and because of it were they redeemed and went up to all of the greatness to which they rose — we were commanded to tally from the morrow of the holiday of Pesach until the day of the giving of the Torah; to show about ourselves the great desire [we have] for the honored day, which our hearts yearn [for] like “a slave seeks shade” and always tallies when will come the yearned-for time that he goes out to freedom. As the tally shows about a man that all of his deliverance and all of his desire is to reach that time.
Composed: Middle-Age Spain, c.1255 – c.1285 CE
The Sefer HaChinukh (“Book of Education”) is an anonymous work written in thirteenth-century Spain that clearly details the 613 commandments and explains the reasons behind them. In his introduction, the author explains that he wrote the book to “awaken the hearts'' of his teenage son and his peers, hoping to foster in them a sense of connection to the commandments. For each commandment, the author cites a biblical source, addresses the philosophical underpinnings of the commandment, presents a brief overview of the details of its observance, and summarizes the commandment’s applicability. The work remains popular today, especially in educational settings.
Waiting for a Loved One to Arrive
Rambam, Maimonides, Moreh Nevuchim (Guide for the Perplexed) 3:43
Each Day We are Delivered From One Force of Impurity
When the Israelites were in Egypt they defiled themselves with all kinds of impurity, so much that they were subservient to forty nine forces of impurity. The blessed Holy One delivered them from the service of all other powers, and brought them into forty nine gates of knowledge that parallel them [the forty nine forces of impurity]…This is why we count them [the forty nine days of the Omer], beginning from the holiday of Pesah…Each day we are delivered from one force of impurity and brought into one force of purity. (Zohar Hadash, Yitro, 39a)
Running after God
During Sefirat Haomer we don't just wait for God's salvation as we did on Passover. We run after God. We must make each day count towards developing that relationship. This active anticipation of connection enables our yearly reenactment of the Torah's revelation, and God willing soon, a full connection through redemption.
Rabbi Dr. Mordechai Schiffman, The Torah of Character
https://www.yu.edu/sites/default/files/inline-files/emor.pdf
How to Count the Omer
Leshem Yichud, Kudsha Brikh Hu U-Schechinte-- Hineni muchan u-mezuman, le-kayem Mitzvat Aseh shel sefirat haomer.
For the sake of the unification of the Transcendent Creative Power with the Divine Presence Dwelling Here and Now, I am here, I am ready to fulfill the mitzvah of counting the Omer.
One stands when counting the omer, and begins by reciting the following blessing:
Barukh ata Adonai Eloheinu Melekh ha’Olam asher kid’shanu b’mitzvotav v’tizivanu al sefirat ha’omer.
Blessed are you, Adonai our God, Sovereign of the Universe, who has sanctified us with your commandments and commanded us to count the omer.
After the blessing, one recites the appropriate day of the count. For example:
Hayom yom eser yamim, shehem shavua eched u-shlosha yamim laomer.
Today is the tenth day, that is one week and three days of the Omer.